Imagine all the events in your life that you remember. Subtract those you feel unworthy of remembering. Specify the choices you made to reach that pivotal point. Explicitly feel how you felt while performing those tasks. Add the emotions that everyone was feeling at that moment in time. Remove, if all, if any, feelings of hope. Immerse yourself in that darkness. And know you cannot change the past. Doesn't it feel numb?—Anonymous